what the fuck is going on
Thank you. I’m still here. I am trying to focus on the things that bring me happiness and reach out to friends and people I love a lot more, and so far, it has really helped. Just had a great night at the Drive-In with my best friend watching actiony movies and eating burgers and cheese fries, came home and watched some Six Feet Under (perfect show) and worked on painting this silly dragon incense burner I found (and must now make into Hiram McDaniels from WTNV shut up???). I also got to have coffee with my friend Tobi, who I…really need to appreciate more and show more love to, because he is kinda the brother I always wanted. My childhood friend since I was three is coming to see me in November, so I know that I have that carrot to run forward for over the next few months. Also, Halloween is coming, and I want to work on costumes. That always makes me happy. I also have Young Wizards drawings and jewelry to make, and I have to be breathing to do it. My wonderful former-boyfriend/friend Twon sent me some pens and a sketchbook, and I am already turning over what I want to fill it with. Maybe I will start Honeybee and Sweet Pea and make those ashcan comics I have been meaning to for years now.
I have a twelve-hour shift tomorrow, which I have to be up for in about two hours, but I feel like helping my mind will help the rest of me for tomorrow, even if I am tired.
These feelings I have have become terrifying and feel so much bigger than me, but I know that it is kind of a hall of mirrors with anxiety and depression; nothing I am seeing is the full truth, but reflects things in me in a way I can only perceive as distorted or stretched, too small or too large to be the real nature of things, and as I walk forward, anything and everything has the ability to change in a moment as I move on. I know there will never be an end to the mirrors, but I also know that if I give up, I will see nothing at all, and I am not sure I should want that, too.
There is a dull, persistent ache in my heart for my girlfriend, especially because yesterday, she turned 30 and I wanted to be with her so much. I planned a day off of work originally but…kinda couldn’t afford to take it with the library renovations and things at home, but that is totally okay. I have to remember that, even when things aren’t happening like I need them to in my heart, they are happening how they need to in my life as a whole. My heart is sore, but, at least for tonight, I don’t feel empty…
…and holy shit, does that ever make a difference, and so does you saying something. I will do my best to keep moving forward. Thank you for taking the time, anon.
FUCK ME NONONASD NON
If you have not listened to this yet you need to this is life changing
fun fact: if you listen in at about 2:48 not only does the guy miss a line but he attempts to cover it up by screaming “RUFF” like a freakign dog
P.S. A lot of people with depression and other mental illnesses have trouble making decisions or choosing from a bunch of different options. “Wanna get dinner at that pizza place on Tuesday night?” is a LOT easier to answer than “So wanna hang out sometime? What do you want to do?”
i stg if i ever become professional concept artist i will just draw all female aliens all the damn time and when they ask why i don’t make males i’ll just be like ‘well hur hur i don’t know how do you make a male of the species? give him HUGE dong?? give him power tools??’
the only way I’ll wake up early
japanese prank shows are on a whole other level
no more $20 shipping!! there are STORES yes STORES where you can buy official worbla now!!
thank you cosplaysupplies!
And we’re looking to add more stores every day! We’ve got feelers out in Ottawa, Indianapolis and Edmonton! And hey, if you know a store (are a store) that should carry it, contact us!
omg omg omg.. Active surplus is like 5 minutes from work :3
For my cosplay bros
I hate when people say money doesn’t buy you happiness. it does. it buys you financial stability, a nice house, nice cars, nice vacations and trips, healthier food, a better education, etc. like wearing burberry while driving around in an audi would probably make me pretty happy too. but it’s just that rich people often take their comfortable lives for granted and end up being spoiled and ungrateful for what they have
Are you a knight? No.
But you know how to use that sword? I do.
When Jessie first meets Woody in Toy Story 2 (Tom Hanks), she exclaims, “Sweet mother of Abraham Lincoln!” Abraham Lincoln’s mother was Nancy Hanks, a blood relative of Tom Hanks. Tom Hanks is a direct descendant of an uncle of Nancy Hanks.
Bryan Cranston and Aaron Paul thanking each other in their Emmy acceptance speeches
the greatest horse in all of animation history